Thursday, April 30, 2009

Training

A video a friend sent me recently. Enjoy!



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I sat staring into the eyes of one of my IBS guys earlier tonight, listening intently, thinking deeply, asking the Spirit for something wise to say, wishing my guy knew God, and one big thought that came to my mind was...I wish I knew more scripture. Haha. This is literally the 6th time God has chided me of this in the past two weeks. I am realizing time and time again that at the end of the day, it is God's Word that sticks. I could give the most eloquent gospel presentation, expound beautifully on the truth that God's glory and our joy go hand in hand, or speak a timely, deep truth into someone's life at just the right moment, but many times the one thing that will be remembered is something from God's word. I've seen this happen through talks I've had with others, and I've experienced this firsthand as well. God has used Erick Loh to speak into my life, many times eloquently and timely, with deep conviction, passion, and the love of a spiritual parent, yet the only thing I remember a week later is the verse Erick gave me to get through the hard time. And I wouldn't have it any other way.

So buckle down, boys and girls. Luke 9:23 says that we must pick up cross daily if we want to be a follower of Jesus. But don't forget the promise of verse 24. In fact, verse 23 taken without verse 24 only leads to legalism and shorting out and falling short. Never forget Jesus' promise, that those who pick up their crosses and lose their lives will instead find their lives. =). It's a promise I forgot, which is why I slowed down my scripture memory, evangelism, prayer, and appreciation of my family. But now, remembering this truth, I remember why I train. We bring God glory by finding delight in Him. Oh BABY what a truth.

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By the way, sorry for the overabundance of bold and italic words in this entry. My writing is not yet strong enough to convey what i'm trying to say without the use of such lame literary crutches. =P

=). God is good, yes? Holla.

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Glory

All the sweat....

All the tears...

All the blood...



Erick Loh's blood spilled in the line of Ultimate Frisbee battle...

Aaron's glorious head flesh woundage:
(so what if he sustained it in a poorly organized dogpile....tis a flesh wound nonetheless).


Why?

ALL FOR GLORY!!!


VICTORY IS OURS!!!


Monday, April 27, 2009

Snow and Leo


Taken on the way up to snowboard over spring break. Twas an epic trip.

I've got the snowboarding bug so bad right now. Too bad it's the end of april. Sigh.


And yes, i know i look really young in this picture.


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In other news...check out what i found at leo's house recently. Enjoy.

Saturday, April 18, 2009

A Serious Post

I fell apart at praise night tonight. Snot, tears, head buried in my hands...it was the whole shebang. All of the stress and worry and concerns accumulated from the past three weeks simply melted away in His presence. I can't describe it. I went to praise night desiring rest in God, seeking conversation with Him, yearning deeply to hear His voice; I'm so glad I went.

Even after the breakdown, I had a tough time focusing. Focusing during prayer has always been a chronic problem for me. If I'm able to pray for 15 minutes without falling asleep, I count it as a success. My mind loves to wander all over the place. Even after I broke down, I still had to expend a fair amount of energy in order to settle down and focus on actually listening to Him, which took me a good hour for some reason. But such is my depravity.

You know, prayer and my attitude towards it is such a funny thing. My flesh abhors prayer, my body doesn't desire it one bit. I'd rather literally do anything else. I'll come up with excuse after excuse just to avoid it. But the funny thing is when I do actually sit down and pray, when I'm spending time pouring it all out and also sitting in silence listening for Him, meditating on the Word, there is no other place I would rather be than right there. I think, "This is the best thing ever!" And yet, my flesh continues to avoid it. I can relate well to Paul in this when he says in Romans 7, "When I want to do good, evil is right there with me. For in my inner being I delight in God's law; but I see another law at work in the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within my members. What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death?"

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I was the last one in the room tonight. The time with Him was some of the sweetest i've ever experienced. The uncertainties, hurts, loss..Jesus told me he knows what it feels like too. No grand epiphanies, but His words were more than enough.

Even now as I type this, I have a hard time remembering what happened just a scant few hours ago. How sinful am I? It's ridiculous. I'm like a pendulum, swinging wildly back and forth, only catching a glimpse of the real Jesus when I'm centered for that split second. But what I do remember...God told me that He loves me. All the stuff i've been preaching to my IBS guys, the stuff I spent the entire past summer telling to strangers overseas...I saw it all through fresh eyes tonight once again. It may have been only for a few moments, but it was crystal clear: God loves me.

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You know I love you. I chose you before time began. And my Spirit is my gift showing you so.

God...you...don't have to...you don't have to...love me anymore, if you don't want to, I mean. I don't know what I mean. It's just...I'm sure you have better things to do. ... This is foolish, I'm going to stop talking now. I fumbled in reply.

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It's easy to say God's called you to certain place, school, or fellowship when things are going well. But when things start to go down the tubes, how certain are you of that original call? Things suddenly are no longer as clear.

But this is where the trial begins. When I boil it down, the answer is so, so simple. Follow Jesus. That's it. This is what He's been teaching me these past three weeks, through John 9 and 10, through Joe Dickan's amazing facebook note, through the story of Zacchaeus we studied for IBS...it is clear He wants to lead. All I need to do is listen and follow. And when I'm doing that, the most glaring and disturbing of questions fade into the background, and I'm filled with unexplainable joy.

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I've decided against sharing the specifics, because this blog medium is not the right place to share such things. And honestly, if I were to share the specifics, this post would quickly fall off the cliff into a sea of self-pity (nate knows from my email haha). But yea. Sigh.

So the time has come to make a choice. There are two. 1) Cut and run...a rather enticing option. 2) Give up. Give up striving, give up every concern, give up every qualm, every hurt, pang of sadness, thoughts of loss, give up my questions and doubts. It is not a 'give them up' as in forget about them, but a 'give them up' so I may instead expend myself simply following Jesus. Truly listening. Entrenched in prayer, as daniel yap put it so well last friday to me. Giving up, surrendering to the Shepherd, giving up and finding rest, letting Him lead me to life to the fullest. Oh my soul, forget not all of His benefits! Don't forget who forgives all of your sins, who fulfills your desires with good things, who renews your heart time and time again, who shows unending patience!

I want so bad to take the latter option, but the first one entices. How easy it would be to cut and run. Please pray that He would be my strength to remain in the fight.

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Alright, that's enough of that. If you want to know more specifically, I guess just email or ask. But I have a feeling God has put me through this trial relatively alone for a distinct reason.

The concept of redemption blows my mind.

A little something that my really good friend sent me. Hope you enjoy.

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Shrimp Burrito Bonanza

One of my goals as of late has been trying to learn how to cook. I can now (semi-confidently) say that I am able to cook two things:

1) Shepherd's Pie Casserole (thanks deb)
2) Shrimp Burritos

I've cooked shrimp burritos twice now. The first time was with my good friend Petrina over spring break, and the second time was earlier tonight with Tiff and Nancy (see one post down for a picture of those two).

The recipe is unique in a couple ways. One thing is that the rice is cooked in chicken broth, not in a cooker. Another thing is a mixture of mayo and plain yogurt, which --> a kind of light version of sour cream.

Some of the ingredients:

There's the rice in the foreground.

Finished! (not my picture, obviously)


The recipe.

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Cooking is pretty darn hard. I find myself extremely self-conscious and super uncomfortable in the kitchen. I am incredibly noob. Examples? There are plenty:

- I didn't know how to chop an onion until spring break
- Today, i just threw the rice into the pan without washing it, not knowing anything was wrong until nancy told me
- I didn't know how to use a can opener, because i've never used one before. I got away with it over spring break with Petrina by nonchalantly asking her to open the can of tomatoes, promising to myself that I would learn later in the secrecy of my own home. But alas, today I couldn't get around it, and I had to humble myself and ask Nancy how to teach me. Sad day.

And this is exactly why I am learning! Haha. And so far, I am really enjoying cooking a lot. It's so relaxing and fun. Hopefully I will be able to get better at it with time, especially throughout this summer.

Let's cook together sometime =).

Monday, April 6, 2009

Worst candy of all time

At the start of last quarter, my mom gave me a fair amount of various snacks, candies, and vittles to last a while. The stash included this bad boy:

I was excited. So I brought a bag one day to my Biochemistry 153 Lab to share with my awesome lab partners, Nancy and Tiff (two of the most awesomeist sisters ever btw).

We broke out the bag, ate a few, and then threw out the rest of the bag.

Please do yourself a favor and never, ever, eat these skittles.

A well-articulated article expressing my sentiments.

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Prayer meeting earlier tonight...tasty. Joe, Jessie, Matt, Josh, Cristina, Peter, and Eric Chen...I've been a believer in Jesus for longer than most of them, yet tonight i felt like the youngest christian of the bunch. All of these cats are enjoying God right now, listening to Him, finding pleasure in 'christian hedonism.' I was reminded that this is why i am here. Amidst the numerous failures and shortcomings of ICA, amidst bitterness, anger, and vestiges of legalism still to be rooted out, amidst bust leadership like me who constantly forget to shut up and listen to the voice of the Shepherd, God is doing a grand work. Not by words or human wisdom, but by His Holy Spirit. Tis a grand, grand thing.

Sunday, April 5, 2009

This is my confession as well

From "Confessions of a Legalist"

"When I study to see what God's words mean, I try to pay special attention to what they say. Equally, I watch for what they don't say. I do this because I am a legalist, and I know it; because given free reign, I will entangle myself every time. God has been good enough to give me the Scriptures, which every day cut away at the bindings I tie around my own soul. I can sing with the psalmist that my soul "is escaped as a bird out of the snare of the fowlers: the snare is broken, and we are escaped" (Ps. 124:7).

Knowledge of God and His Word is freedom."

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I suck so hardcore. Hosanna, save me Jesus. Hosanna, thank you for saving me Jesus.

Back to the basics. Praying for big things. John 15. Forgiveness is such a cool thing, isn't it? Hallelujah.

Thursday, April 2, 2009

Mmhmm

This resonates with me.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Mmm...

YWAM Las Vegas, summer of 07...

From Blog Stuff


...--->lasting friendships in Christ, one and half years later. so good. thanks for the prayers sam.

From Blog Stuff

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phil. 3:8-11. this thing called knowing Christ has been the most confusing, frustrating, craziest, ridiculous thing i've ever done. i don't get it. knowing this Jesus has confused me more than anything. it's led me to talking with complete strangers, feeding the homeless and mentally insane, and doing things during which i find myself thinking, "...what the heck are you doing Daniel?" in a good, crazy way of course. but as you can already guess i am going to say, it's been the most joyful, refreshing, and challenging thing i've ever done or will do, and of course, i wouldn't have it any other way. knowing Jesus...knowing the creator...all i can say is "oh mama."